lines dropping out

talking to myself
and nobody's home
these days i am my closest friend
just trying to realize what's been of me

watching a "sadness meets deception" movie
tried to figure out if what you say is what you mean
or if what you do is what is meant to be my everyday
but i know different. now i know better.

maybe giving your all is what leaves you so empty
maybe your smile was the missing number
to my collision rollercoaster ride.
i'm crashing. but i'm no fucking wave.

some say the winner laughs last
but. is a smile the prime trophy?
seems like the full meaning of feeling on the top of the world
is that the fall will hurt a whole lotta more.

it's funny how easy you can lose what seems to be "your air"
experience sometimes teaches you to wait for your award
but with no accepting speech.

acted like a foreigner
as you welcomed me to a town called hipocrecy.
what goes around comes around
and what happens is for the better. or so geeks say.

i gave my share.
i played my part. and maybe more.
good luck and. thanks for the memories.
no grudges hold. do you deserve that?